Today was the worst day I have had since getting sober. My head was fuzzy. I was unfocused and unable to concentrate on even the most simple tasks. The feeling still lingers slightly today but it is passing. On days like yesterday I want to identify the problem and sometimes there is just no specific answer–at least not one that I can come up with. I accepted the day with gratitude for my sobriety.
I don’t have much to say today but I want to thank every one of you that visits this blog and takes the time to think of me and pray for me. I have passed the 40 day mark and probably a large part of the mental and spiritual detoxification process. There is a lot more to do.
This blog is significant to me personally because it is symbolic of an opening that has been created in my heart and mind to share this journey with others that may be in the same situation or have loved ones in the grips of addiction. If I can be of any help to any of you in my early sobriety, please do not hesitate to ask, call or write. I still feel it is necessary to maintain a strict adherence to the principles of my recovery and so it would not be my place to advise or instruct. However, I would be happy to listen should you have a burning need to speak to someone about a particular concern.
We’ll catch up again after the weekend. Happy Holidays to you and yours.
John
Rich,
The only fear that we should have is fear itself, to quote FDR. So, don’t worry about the cops.
Yes, I realize now that I will probably always want to have a hit or get a buzz going but that’s why they call it addiction. I hope I’m done with self-reliance alone because it really sucks!
Thanks for your comments and keep comin’ back!
John
John great to here you are doing fine, however I am 61 years old and have been addicted on and off for over 45 years, Don’t fall in to the same trap as me, which is to say after a year maybe a year and a half you think everything is cool, so you go back, just for a taste of that old high, well with me that taste lasted another 5 years and on and on again. Oh well that’s it for me, and since i have never done anthing like this before, I guess the cops will get me now LOL.
Diane,
Sorry it took me a while to get back to you… I am just now getting into a morning routine that includes me keeping up with my blog. This morning I had my meditation time and then played the piano in the sanctuary for a few minutes. What a great way to start any day!
Thank you for keeping up with me. I will be 60 days sober on the 9th of January. Time is going by so fast….
Let’s stay in touch.
John
Joel,
I really enjoyed our conversation the other day on the phone. I will be in the office all day on Wednesday, January 2nd, 9am to 5pm Central. Call me if you get the chance. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
John
David,
I am so sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. I spoke with Jonathan last night on the phone and he told me that you guys were converging on Minneapolis. Fabulicious…. I can’t wait to see you guys and compare notes. In the meantime, let’s reconnect as much as possible thru email, phone, etc.
Love you man,
John
Hi John,
I read your blogs everyday and it’s great to know that I can still be a part of your recovery and you mine. Johnathan, Dennis and I are planning on meeting in Minneapolis on Jan 25th for a little re-union. It would be great to see you and be able to share what life’s been like in the real world. Congratulations on 42 days, I’m proud of you!!!!!!
Merry Christmas!!!
Hi John,
Thanks for finding me on Plaxo. It is wonderful to hear from you again. I sent you an email.
Hi John,
Yes!! Feelings!! WOW! they hit us hard don’t they. Ride them- Smiles.Share them. WE can do this. I sometimes forget ‘WE’ that very small word. Thanks for talking to us thro Cyber Space.
I’m Diane and I’m in recovery as you may have noticed reading bits of my blog. Nice to meet you John. I wish you well on your journey with all the ups and downs ins and outs. The lot HA!!!
Congratulations on your 40 days my friend. Another Miracle. Aww!!
Respect and Smiles
Di.:)
Hey!!! Love the black. Hehe!!!
Ron,
I’m so happy for you and very proud of you. I admire the effort and hard work that you are putting forth in your recovery. I love you and have immensely enjoyed your visit with us this week. It has been the best!!! You are a great brother, uncle, son, brother in law, and friend. Go with God!
Love ya,
Shanda