Today I am feeling much better. Yesterday was a very tough day because I knew at the outset that I was going to have to present a very personal account to my group in group therapy. I don’t want to go into the details of it here yet but it had to do with letting go of some expectations of the past–some things as a child that did not go the way I would have like them to go.
During the session I choked on my words, I cried, I read, I sobbed. The men at Progress Valley listened intently, let me feel this sadness and help me take off this burden that I have been carrying for many many years. This event is one of two very cleansing events that I have had during my early recovery.
Leading up to last night’s disclosure to the group, my body, mind and heart were struggling, wrestling with these painful memories. It was as if this negative, oppressive energy, associated with my feelings of grief and loss, was holding on for life in my body. But the power of sharing this with a group of both straight and gay men at Progress Valley is inestimable.
This morning I am so grateful to my God, my Higher Power, for watching over me and seeing me through this difficult process. “He will never leave me, nor forsake me.”
Who shall separate us from the Love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
As it is written: ”For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,
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neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:31-39)
